Constant Inconsistencies

Constant Inconsistencies

I just want to go back to the beginnin’

Where I was innocent

And everything I was winnin’

But right now,

I’m just sittin’

Thinking about all the time

That has gone by

I’m soon to become an adult

But I don’t even know why

I’m soon to be on my own

And my old life will die

I want to go high in life

But I will only be met by an inconstant sky

I tell myself that everything is for a reason

But now everything seems like a lie

I am just here

Alive for yet another school year

The end of something long ago

That had begun

This change was inevitable

There was no need to run

I will always be stuck in this system

Because I don’t know any other one

For this is not an end of a system

But the end of a cycle

A new phase

That pre-maturely set up the remainder of my days

For our paths are created by what society expects

No matter what we make of ourselves

We will always be under their concepts

For we are lost in a society that is lost

We just innovate in inconsistency

And each generation adds up the cost

So I will just put in my brain

That I must go along with this game

Even if I fall out of it

I will just fall into another chain

Because the more I try to beat what’s fixed

The more I will go insane

Lost and Found

Lost and Found
song lyrics only (can be sang as a rap)

They say I am dead
But I know I’m alive
Can’t you see me breathe?
How can it be so hard to believe
That what I say is true?
If I’m really dead
I won’t know what to do
Because my heart gets heavy
And my peaceful thoughts become few

 

Yeah, life doesn’t have to be this way
We can get rid of our old selves
And start to live today
Put all of our old habits away
And get out of our sleep
In this life of lies
I have fallen too deep
And I will surely burn this monster at the stake
Just to breathe and be awake
Because this subscription of death
I no longer want to take

 

They say that I am stuck
Deep in my own rut
But
I’m done living with no feeling
And with my eyes shut
Yeah, I’m done living in my past
I’m going to open my eyes
And make life last
Because you’re supposed to live in the present
And not always flip the hour glass

 

Yeah, life doesn’t have to be this way
We can get rid of our old selves
And start to live today
Put all of our old habits away
And get out of our sleep
In this life of lies
I have fallen too deep
And I will surely burn this monster at the stake
Just to breathe and be awake
Because this subscription of death
I no longer want to take

 

Life can be an illusion
We are blinded by our own confusion
Because we blame others for our faults
When in reality,
It’s the result of our own choosin’
Yeah, they say that the devil is a liar
But it’s our choice whether we end up in heaven
Or in eternal fire
So I’m done living life like a game
I’m done living on the wire
I am going to find who I am today
And live life higher

 

Yeah, life doesn’t have to be this way
We can get rid of our old selves
And start to live today
Put all of our old habits away
And get out of our sleep
In this life of lies
I have fallen too deep
And I will surely burn this monster at the stake
Just to breathe and be awake
Because this subscription of death
I no longer want to take

 

Yeah, they say that I am dead
But now I know I’m alive
Oh yeah I have died
My old self has passed away
Now I am free
To live to see another day
Now death
My soul doesn’t have to pay
So I’m going to live life
And go on my own way

* I am going to Milwaukee’s Summer Fest today and tomorrow, it’s a yearly event where dozens of song artists big named and smaller come and perform live for a week for thousands of people! So I wrote this song to pump me up and get ready for the next awesome days to come.

Chosen Few

Chosen Few
A true story

With each breath

I draw further and further

From you

Now I don’t know what to do

Because your truth

I chose to forget

So naturally

Our relationship split

In two

Then my prayers became

More and more few

As words of deceit and confusion

I began to spew

The day I realized your truth

Is the day I died

Because I realized that the god I was serving

Wasn’t you, it was all a lie

I was just serving me

But I couldn’t see

Past all of my self-righteousness and hypocrisy

Then you showed me the light

And gave me the choice to continue in darkness

Or to fight…

But I obviously don’t serve you

So by default, I am one with the night

And even though my heart and soul

Still tries to do what is right

All my efforts blow away with the wind

As if it never happened

Right now I am lost

But with you

I can be found

But as long as I deny you

On this earth, I will forever be hell-bound

Though still young

My day on this earth is numbered

I know what I have to do

But when will I do it? I continually wonder

I wonder

Wonder why?

That though for my life,

You have died

Why I can’t pick up my cross

And at least try

Its hard to admit

But I’m afraid

Scared of the truth

And the price I will pay

Because when I found the truth

That day

You showed me

That we live in “The Matrix”

That though my parents think they serve you

We are all living in fakeness

But everyone will think I’m crazy

They won’t take this

But I don’t want to see them wither away

For the rest of my wakeness!

And its after this thought

That I hide inside

Because though I know what to do

I’m too scared, so I put the truth aside

All I know is that the devil is a liar

And he will do

All that he can do

To make us think

That what we serve is true

That is why many are called

But the chosen are few

* Mathew 22:14

Double Sided Me

Double Sided Me- Song lyrics only

I don’t know you anymore
We used to be one
But when I look in the mirror
I don’t recognize my reflection
So now I need you to go
You’ve over-welcomed your stay
I’m done living a doubled life
I said, go away!

Yeah, you’re not the boss of me
So get out from inside of me
I won’t just sit quietly
I said, you’re not the boss of me!
So get out from inside of me!!
I won’t just sit quietly!!!

Yeah, I will have you know
That I’m going to take back control
Over what you took
And regain my soul
You’ve lied to me for too long
I was blind
But in the mirror
I could clearly see
That there was an angel and a demon
And one of them was not me
And that’s when I knew
That to find myself
And rid of you
Is what I truly had to do

That’s right, you’re not the boss of me
So get out from inside of me
I won’t just sit quietly
I said, you’re not the boss of me!
So get out from inside of me!!
I won’t just sit quietly!!!

I am on top
And you’re below
I’m the sun
And you’re melted snow
You smell of defeat
I hope to never see you again
And you shrivel up in my heat
Because what is the past has passed
And it’s time for me to accomplish new feats

That’s right, you’ll never be the boss of me
So stay out from inside of me
You know I don’t sit quietly
I said, you’ll never be the boss of me!
So stay out from inside of me!!
You know I don’t sit quietly!!!

Twisted Five Senses

Twisted Five Senses

Make Me numb

Because life’s pain

I don’t want to feel

Make me deaf

Because the truth

I don’t want to hear

Make me blind

Because reality

I don’t want to see

Cut out my tongue

Because my own tears

I don’t want to taste

And plug my nose

Because my putrid decay

I don’t want to smell

Little-White Lie

Little-White Lie

Sometimes we feel it necessary
To let loose
The truth
Just a little white lie…
It won’t hurt a fly…
Yet every mistake
Has its stakes
Though we thought the falsification was thin
It is still a sin
And every sin
Continually decays us from within
Our lies do not just affect others
We become the victim
So keep on telling those little lies
You’re just quickening your own demise
So ask God for forgiveness each sunrise
And sunset
Because a new day of life
Is not a sure bet
It’s not worth an eternity in hell
Because small white lies you want to tell
Though the truth may hurt
It’s better than being consumed by
Fire, ashes, and dirt
So turn around
Lie and sin no longer
So that your relationship with God will become fonder
And your chances of reaching heaven will grow stronger.