Beggars Can’t be Choosers

Beggars Can’t be Choosers

I keep telling myself, that I’m wasting my time
Repeating the past,
And falling behind,
That I, that I am losing my mind
But no, I am fine
I can’t be wasting time,
If I’m trying to find, me
Maybe I need to retrace my steps,
And discover what allows me to be,
For I am more than what you see
I was a slave to expectation,
But in disappointing myself I became free
Became free to what lies ahead
A self-made future
In the disease of life that spreads
But though I’m tainted,
I’m still alive,
I will carry these burdens,
And won’t shed a tear in my eye
Because beggars can’t be choosers,
And for my dreams I’d die

Murder of the Highest Degree

Murder of the Highest Degree

Everything is the same

There are seasons of joy,

But in the end, disappointment is sustained

I search for love

But I am treated like a game

Happiness becomes allusive

As my empathy is slain

There seems to be no kind heart

Yet this world is still sustained

Because while love and compassion is contained

The world lives off of selfish desire, false hope, and greed

And of such, humanity is maintained

And no matter how hard I fight back,

By truth I am blamed

By my family, I am shamed

For though this world is blind,

I am the one who is lame

And yet through life’s tragedy,

There is a way out of the game

I will kill my soul

And break out of this chain

‘Cause silence is sanity

So I can find myself later

And regain my humanity

For my spirit right now is neglected

I am already told to be quiet

And do what’s expected

That’s why when I leave

I will do what’s rejected

But from now til that time

This burden I cannot bear

Call me a coward

But true preservation is rare

That’s why I must kill off my feelings,

Walk away, and never care

Yet the emptiness will still burn a hole inside

That’s why I must keep hope alive

But appear dead on the outside

Observe, wait, and lie

So I can resurface with strength,

And chip away at man’s pride

Because as long as I breathe,

I will plot to open the world’s eyes

And expose the horrors in which it believes

And I should expect pain

That’s why, for now, my soul needs to leave

Because I know I will be held down

As society murders it and leaves it to bleed

Shaded Creations

Shaded Creations

I am that man

Who I was afraid to become

Now how shall I live

Under this scorching sun?

With frozen veins

I have no choice but to succumb

To me

The one

Inside

The one who has died

To one who is brand new in death

But has survived

For this fear

Was wrought from the tears

Of the one suppressed inside

By the tide of lies

Wrapped in my mind

That was taught under the sun that shined

Taught to stay in line

While keeping myself in my shadow behind

And I only knew what I perceived

I thought I was filling me

With each empty accomplishment that I had achieved

And the more the sun shined

The more that I believed

But this whole time

The sun did not just shine

On this skin that was so fine

But illuminated my elongated soul

That I’d left behind

So to the sun I shall climb

So my soul will outstretch across the earth

True fulfillment

Unearth

And to new generations

Give birth

Dig our hurt out of the dirt

And express myself further than my shirt

For the sun shines on this body

That casts my shadow past

How long my body can last

Soul-Bound

“Soul-Bound”

I was born on a rock

Deep in the blackness of space

Population one

Me, the only race

By myself, I was raised

Alone on this cold rock

For all of my days

But though I was alone

This rock was my home

And though I was alone

I didn’t know the meaning of the word

Just a fleeting hole that I felt

But that also flew away like a bird

On this rock

I valued my time

I knew myself to the fullest extent

And walked a straight line

Though all there was, was blackness

I could see past the night

Inside this rock

And into its light

Into this light

This soul that shines bright

That guides my home

Through all of space’s plight

And to world’s undiscovered

Unknown to my soul

And the blackness all around

I took all of space’s brutality

And turned it into harmonious sounds

Sounds of joy, hope, and laughter

Because on this lonely rock I found myself

That which my soul was truly after

 

Write to Shout

Write to Shout

When all is black

Dead

And in the grave

One can hear in the stillness of the night

The scratching beat of my heart

That allows me to write

My thoughts on pure fresh paper

Adding the whispers of my soul

Layer by layer:

“You write me out

Til there’s no sight about

But you keep me trapped

Within my own shouts

I want to be completely free

Free to be

But you only keep me here

On paper, where me you can only see

I’m only in one dimension

I want to go 3-D

Where people can not only see

But hear

Hear about overcoming fear

To learn to cheer when they look into the mirror

For you wear your mouth like a closed zipper

You won’t share your vision aloud

No, not even a whisper

It’s one thing to write

And another to shout

So write with your blood, and speak with your soul

Til every ounce of blood and meaningful words spills out”

All or Nothing

All or Nothing

Quit your complainin’

I want to see you fight

And sayin’

That you’re going to fix it

Find your mark

And not miss it

How long will this last

Wallowing in the past?

You must move on and work

For life is too short

To let disappointment distort

Your vision

Carry on and complete the mission

Victory is calling out to you

Just listen

It’s not impossible

Just a lot of work

So brush off difficulty

Carry on and give a smirk

Don’t let hardships stop you

Mock you

Punch and drop you

Look straight

And carry the weight

If you want it bad enough

You’ll accept your fate

This is your dream we’re talking about!

This is your life we’re talking about!

So stand up to diversity

And give a battle shout

For you shouldn’t stop

Til each and every drop of your soul spills out

What is True?

“What is True?”

Don’t be afraid

To question truth

I know that being a dissenter

Is viewed as being uncouth

But you and I both know

That history and time is distorted

Watered-down

And reworded

I can’t put my trust into something

that wasn’t completely recorded

The day you realize this

You will surely be awarded

For you will see

That you don’t know what to believe

Then you won’t know what to do

Because your soul isn’t looking for absolutes

But first, absolutely you

You’ve been searching for answers

But your inside already knew

That to the meaning of the universe

Your soul held the first clue

For you can’t find meaning in the world

If you can’t find meaning in yourself

You can’t take risks

And expect the best of health

But if you come to terms with your soul

That may be the beginning of everlasting wealth

*I do believe in God, I just think that with anything, including religion, we need to have some kind of resolve. That resolve should be a confirmation that you basically meditated upon and decided in your heart that that is what you want to do. And, I do believe that through that, with religion, we will find ourselves even more, if not completely.

Far From Home

Far From Home

I want to go home

I’ve been here to long

I thought I was strong

But I clearly don’t belong

Leave me alone

I know I was wrong

I over-welcomed my stay

But I’m too lazy to change

So I’d rather run away

Than pick myself up

And go my own way

So in this strange land away from home

I will lay

Yes,

From this secluded cabin in the woods

I will never leave

Though I want to go home

I don’t know what I want to believe

Or what I should

So I will stay amongst these trees

And become one with the woods

I’ll search for my home

Amongst the stars

But my home is lost

Far further than Mars

So I look at my camp fire

And realize that past these flames

I will never go higher

And even if I could

My need for oxygen would be dire

And all I can do is sit there

And cry

For I’m far from home

And out here I will surely die

As I my body becomes rooted with the forest floor

As I keep asking why

And continue to forever lie

Blinking Eyes

Blinking Eyes

It’s not I you see

But a shadow

Not me

But a reflection

Check for my heartbeat

And there will be no detection

I’m sick

But you can’t give me the vaccine because I am the infection

The only proof of my existence

Is the blinking of my eyes

Everything that I put my love to

Dies

For my love is just hate

And there’s no debate

That there’s no escape from my fate

The end of me is near

But I can’t go back, it’s too late

Death is around the corner

And tonight, darkness and I have a date

But wait,

This can’t be it

There must be more

Why else would my eyes blink for?

If I were to die

They would stop

And my body would turn lifeless

And drop

But I’m still standing

I’m still blinking

I may be sinking

But now my eyes have me thinking

That I shouldn’t believe

All that I see

For all that appears

Are millions of failures that combine to form me

That’s why I feel that I’ve already died

I count myself out

And never look inside

But if I bothered to look closely

There would be a helpless infant

Yes a baby me,

There was no misprint

I still have my whole life to grow

To appreciate the sun

And learn to accept the snow

To learn from my deepest depths of my lows

So I thank you, blinking eyes

For without you, this truth I wouldn’t know

I was near death

But now I can start again fresh and slow

For no matter what, we all have signs of life

It’s just up to you, to let them show

False Escape

False Escape

I really thought this was it

I thought this was going to be that outlet

A world that I can escape too

And from my pains forget

But I find that though I write

I’m still lost and afraid at night

I write my monsters on paper

But they don’t stay there

They’d rather stay in the air

And get deep into my head

Further than my hair

My writing can give me peace

But obviously peace is misleading

I can say that I’m content all that I want

But not if my eyes are bleeding

I write what I feel

But I don’t know what I’m actually feeling

I observe all that I see

But I don’t know what I’m actually seeing

Because I haven’t found existence

And I don’t know my own meaning

So right now

On this writing I’m leaning

But my mind is in bad shape

And this temple needs a cleaning

* High all. Just a quick update, this will be my last post for about 2-3 days, I am going to be attending a summer college camp at Marquette University, so I wont have time to post anything coming tomorrow morning. I hope you guys have a good one! Thanks

Lost and Found

Lost and Found
song lyrics only (can be sang as a rap)

They say I am dead
But I know I’m alive
Can’t you see me breathe?
How can it be so hard to believe
That what I say is true?
If I’m really dead
I won’t know what to do
Because my heart gets heavy
And my peaceful thoughts become few

 

Yeah, life doesn’t have to be this way
We can get rid of our old selves
And start to live today
Put all of our old habits away
And get out of our sleep
In this life of lies
I have fallen too deep
And I will surely burn this monster at the stake
Just to breathe and be awake
Because this subscription of death
I no longer want to take

 

They say that I am stuck
Deep in my own rut
But
I’m done living with no feeling
And with my eyes shut
Yeah, I’m done living in my past
I’m going to open my eyes
And make life last
Because you’re supposed to live in the present
And not always flip the hour glass

 

Yeah, life doesn’t have to be this way
We can get rid of our old selves
And start to live today
Put all of our old habits away
And get out of our sleep
In this life of lies
I have fallen too deep
And I will surely burn this monster at the stake
Just to breathe and be awake
Because this subscription of death
I no longer want to take

 

Life can be an illusion
We are blinded by our own confusion
Because we blame others for our faults
When in reality,
It’s the result of our own choosin’
Yeah, they say that the devil is a liar
But it’s our choice whether we end up in heaven
Or in eternal fire
So I’m done living life like a game
I’m done living on the wire
I am going to find who I am today
And live life higher

 

Yeah, life doesn’t have to be this way
We can get rid of our old selves
And start to live today
Put all of our old habits away
And get out of our sleep
In this life of lies
I have fallen too deep
And I will surely burn this monster at the stake
Just to breathe and be awake
Because this subscription of death
I no longer want to take

 

Yeah, they say that I am dead
But now I know I’m alive
Oh yeah I have died
My old self has passed away
Now I am free
To live to see another day
Now death
My soul doesn’t have to pay
So I’m going to live life
And go on my own way

* I am going to Milwaukee’s Summer Fest today and tomorrow, it’s a yearly event where dozens of song artists big named and smaller come and perform live for a week for thousands of people! So I wrote this song to pump me up and get ready for the next awesome days to come.

Freed Soul, Lost Body

Freed Soul, Lost Body

I am not of this earth

I died long ago

My soul escaped my body

When I came of age

The day I lost my innocence

When my life became routine

When I awoke with the sun

And slept with the moon

The minute I became comfortable

And settled down

In life’s fixed system

My soul had no choice

But to leave

My body was getting too full

And it could hardly breathe

So escaped my body it did

Leaving a confused shell

Who thought he was living life

But life was just living him

Just another creature

Who was randomly alive

At this given moment

In life’s purposeless wasteland

But my soul

Long ago

Could not take this…

It does today

What my body chooses not to

I died at age twelve

So still a kid

My soul knows no bounds

It has climbed the highest mountains

Explored the deepest depths of the sea

Traveled the vast corners of the universe

My soul has no time for fear

And no time for doubt

All it knows is confidence

Its heart beats daily

With wonder and freedom

Because long long ago

My soul left me

Leaving my self -afflicted boundaries behind

Because it was tired of living in a body that could not hear him

And to true originality, was blind

My Dam Soul

My Dam Soul

I run from my past

And I hide from my fears

But I’m not going to start all over again

I’ve been building this up for years

I just want to cry out

But there’s never any tears

For the waters of my soul

Are suppressed behind this dam

And I will never let them through

Because I’m afraid to change who I am

Yes, I’m afraid

Afraid that the condition of my soul has been delayed

And with sorrow and confusion

I have paid

The ghastly cost

But the more I pay

The more that my life is lost

So I slowly fade away

As I dry up

Day by day

But this dam that I have made

Is not strong enough for my waves

The waters of my soul

Will break it down

And it will fall

And I surely won’t survive the impact

No, not at all

I will drown in this pain

That is all around

I will cry for help

But no one will hear a sound

For how can anyone hear someone that is underwater

Especially when to death, they are bound?

Lone Castle in the Sand

Lone Castle in the Sand
Song Lyrics Only

Can you see me all alone
On the earth’s vast sand?
I’m a wayward sand castle
Who can hardly stand
Haunted by the shore
Taunted by death each day
This may be my last stand
Before I’m washed away

But don’t let me be alone
Don’t let me be washed away
Build me a city
Build me a city!
So I can stand tall

Each day I’ve been kicked around
And I see parts of my soul
Being tossed all over the ground
I often want to hide in the sea
But I will be washed away or I will drown
Yeah I need protection
I can never stand alone
So please help me
Build a solid home

Yeah don’t let me be alone
Don’t let me be washed away
Build me a city
Build me a city!
So I can stand tall

Yeah build me the finest kingdom of all
So I will be strong
And won’t fall
Recover the grains of sand
That flew from my soul
Put me back together
And I will never let those pieces go
Make in me a solid foundation
So I won’t flow away
Blow away
I’m tired of being a lonely wayward castle in the sand for all of my days

[Slow] Don’t let me be alone
*Don’t let me be washed away
*Build me a city
*Build me a city
Build me a city!
I’m tired of being a wayward sand castle!
Restore my kingdom again!
Yeah I am tired of being lost in the sand!
Today with you, I will make my stand!
So I can find my soul!
And I can stand tall!
I can stand tall!!
Yeah so I can stand tall

Soul Searching

This song has made me think so much about life, my purpose and the condition of my soul. “Isle of Flightless Birds” by 21 Pilots is an extremely powerful song because it is sad and true. This band has a special way in opening peoples eyes and mind to honestly think about life and evaluate themselves. This song is also a great reminder of what Poeteer is all about and what I am trying to do with my work. All I want to do is show people truth, the honest truth that society chooses to neglect; and from there, the decision is yours. Enjoy:

Sound of my Soul

Sound of my Soul

Going through life

With one earbud in

And the other out

One eye inverted

 And the other seeing what life is all about

Though partially blind

 I still have half the control

 Over my mind

Though not fully exposed to reality

 I’ve left part of the old me behind

 I made that crucial transition

 When a wish

Becomes a mission

 Where a dream

Becomes a goal

Now the next step is to take the other earbud out

So the world can hear the sound of my soul

Meaninglessness

Meaninglessness

I woke up this morning

And went outside

I saw my soul blowing with the wind

And reached for it

But it slipped right through my fingers

I feel lost

But in the air my dreams still linger

Though,

No matter how many of them

I try to pursue

 There’s nothing I can really do

Because without my soul

I have no feeling

And no matter what I accomplish

It has no meaning

So often to God

I’m kneeling

But I don’t know who I’m praying to

Because with the wind

 My soul blew

And with it

My sense of purpose flew

So I just stop praying

 Because I don’t know what to do

So life and I go separate ways

 And I go blowing in the wind

All of my days

My Reacurring Theme

Continually on Poeteer, I want to challenge all readers to challenge themselves. To evaluate their lives, character and who they are. I believe that its healthy for the soul, you know, to know who YOU are. Change starts with you.

Life’s Greatest Tragedy

Life’s Greatest Tragedy

What’s the point of gaining the whole world and losing your soul?
Once you get to that point you will lose all control
Of yourself
You have become your own God
Money and yourself always on your mind
Congratulations, you have become a member of mankind
A race that leaves no space
In the depths of the mind
We don’t sit back and take the time to rewind
our lives
To evaluate ourselves
Because we are to afraid to delve in our conscience
We tell ourselves not to, that it’s nonsense
Constantly in denial
We never put our life and morals on trial
All of our misdeeds and deception are never put on file
Whether we realize it or not, we are slowly burning ourselves
Like a candle
The only spark in our life is from the outside
The artificial fire slowly burns us down
While our souls on the inside are decaying and brown

Sad to say, we will never be truly happy this way
Life will be like a living hell
Some of us can already tell
The key is to go back to where we were before we fell
Before we succumbed to ungratefullness and all of the world’s material
We need to find ourselves through all of the rubble and pull ourselves out of the trouble and pop our oversized bubble
Then once we see reality
We can fix our morality
And become some of the rarest people in the world and find our souls in the midst of life’s greatest tragedy.

(Mathew 16:26)