Excuses

Excuses

My favorite excuse is that I’m lazy,

That I’m double minded,

And slightly crazy

They say that I should commit,

But I brush it off and say: “maybe”

Look at me,

Does it look like I know what I want?

No.

My mind will change

As fast as the time will change,

One second and I’m gone

Brand new and reborn

My hopes are few, then I’m torn

Second by second,

A new identity I adorn.

I just want to know

That I know what I want

So that I can exist

Without each breath leading to my death

And I will try for something

With all of me that is left.

That sounds best!…I guess?

I really don’t know.

Each new me comes down like fire

Then melts like snow

Leaving a slushiness of watery remains,

My soul loses hope

And in the side of the street it drains

Adding to the waste

Of space

In this mind that is displaced.

My excuse is that I’m running for the finish

But in reality,

It’s a fixed race

Because I’m only running away,

To a place that is comfortable and safe

 

Forgery

Forgery- song lyrics only

I can help you through

Through the land of broken bones

I can feel your pain

Through that heavy heart you hold

But stop hiding

Your face says it all

Says it…

 

Chorus- All, all, all!

Oh, why are you trying to fight the tide,

All alone?

Drowning your soul?

And burying your bones?

Get your head

Above water

Oh, take my hand

I’ll pull you farther

 

I saw your heart, in my dreams

Fully open,

But full of screams

Darkness will always be

Be in the air

Inside your blood

But you can either haunt yourself

Or rise above

I can see shards of glass

In your eyes

Cause your face

Says it all

Says it…

 

Chorus- All, all, all!

Oh, why are you trying to fight the tide,

All alone?

Drowning your soul?

And burying your bones?

Get your head

Above water

Oh, take my hand

I’ll pull you farther

 

But if you fade,

Fall with your dreams!

Don’t stop

At least try

Oh, who says you don’t belong

But if you believe the lies

They’re not wrong

 

So die with me

And you will see

That you don’t belong

But the world is wrong

If you forge,

If you forge,

Your own existence

 

Soft- So live,

And forge,

All that, you know

Murder of the Highest Degree

Murder of the Highest Degree

Everything is the same

There are seasons of joy,

But in the end, disappointment is sustained

I search for love

But I am treated like a game

Happiness becomes allusive

As my empathy is slain

There seems to be no kind heart

Yet this world is still sustained

Because while love and compassion is contained

The world lives off of selfish desire, false hope, and greed

And of such, humanity is maintained

And no matter how hard I fight back,

By truth I am blamed

By my family, I am shamed

For though this world is blind,

I am the one who is lame

And yet through life’s tragedy,

There is a way out of the game

I will kill my soul

And break out of this chain

‘Cause silence is sanity

So I can find myself later

And regain my humanity

For my spirit right now is neglected

I am already told to be quiet

And do what’s expected

That’s why when I leave

I will do what’s rejected

But from now til that time

This burden I cannot bear

Call me a coward

But true preservation is rare

That’s why I must kill off my feelings,

Walk away, and never care

Yet the emptiness will still burn a hole inside

That’s why I must keep hope alive

But appear dead on the outside

Observe, wait, and lie

So I can resurface with strength,

And chip away at man’s pride

Because as long as I breathe,

I will plot to open the world’s eyes

And expose the horrors in which it believes

And I should expect pain

That’s why, for now, my soul needs to leave

Because I know I will be held down

As society murders it and leaves it to bleed

Liar, Liar

Liar, Liar 

I’m feelin’ like a liar
Feelin’ like a liar
Where I conspire to pull people under
Just to meet my desires
And
I just do this for myself
I don’t care about anyone else
Because I’m feenin’ for some meanin’
And want to further my material wealth
You see,
Outside I’m confused
And inside I’m abused
My body is now my spirit
And this world is amused
And because this selfishness I choose
This life I will lose                                                     For even though I’m filling my soul
My heart will feel used
And if my heart has lost its teal
Then my fate has been sealed                       Because I’m enabling my death
By numbing what is real

Little-White Lie

Little-White Lie

Sometimes we feel it necessary
To let loose
The truth
Just a little white lie…
It won’t hurt a fly…
Yet every mistake
Has its stakes
Though we thought the falsification was thin
It is still a sin
And every sin
Continually decays us from within
Our lies do not just affect others
We become the victim
So keep on telling those little lies
You’re just quickening your own demise
So ask God for forgiveness each sunrise
And sunset
Because a new day of life
Is not a sure bet
It’s not worth an eternity in hell
Because small white lies you want to tell
Though the truth may hurt
It’s better than being consumed by
Fire, ashes, and dirt
So turn around
Lie and sin no longer
So that your relationship with God will become fonder
And your chances of reaching heaven will grow stronger.